Kak Tini's Wedding...

Congratulations to Kak Tini and her husband for their wedding ceremony last weekend. You look so sweet in that yellowish wedding piece..hehehe..

Nowadays there are a lot of my friends, office mates and my relatives engaged and get married. It seems like a trend..a popular one..hehehe.. Last week also Maya Karin's wedding with her husband, Muhammad Ali. She look stunning in that white wedding gown. I really love her gown. i wish i can wear that kind of gown in my wedding day, even though just in the studio..hahaha..




Talking about weddings and wedding gowns, i think i prefer white color. To me, white seems so pure which symbolize the love that unite two souls in one. Added with white roses or white lily where each means something to me. i don't really much care of big wedding ceremony because i don't want to burden him and my parents. Yet i do want my wedding to be the sweetest memory of all memories that i have, which i will always cherish in my heart. When i saw the couples get married, two main feelings usually appeared within my heart, happy [for their marriage] and a bit of envy [because they already found their true love as i still gapping my hands to the sky..searching something that never has the ending]. But that doesn't mean i hate them or any. Still in the positive aura..hehehe.. Well, as they always said, just let time and fate be the judge. My life is still long and there are many things that i haven't encountered and explored.

Thus, i just wait for my prince charming to save me riding his beautiful white horse and said 'I already fall in love with you..would you be the queen of my heart..?' [hahaha..this is what happen if i tgh berangan..too much of shakespeare and fairy tales ;D ] As i thought, i have a very high imagination...without borders indeed..(^_^)v. But it would be great if that thing will suddenly happen to us..it's just no horses involve coz nowadays, cars are popular..hahaha..Yet, it's still romantic (^_^)..

Alright..enough of wusshy musshy shakespeare thingy. Back to the fact..ahaha..i still single and been rejected..ouch..(~_^), yet who says i will give up..NEVER!..hahaha..there will be someone for me in the end of the road..yurp..(^_^)v.

Ohh..btw, below are more pictures taken during Kak Tini's wedding..enjoy!

nisfu syaaban..

hari nie adalah malam nisfu syaaban..malam di mana Allah akan membuka 300 pintu rahmat untuk umat Islam memohon kerahmatan daripadaNya.

thus,

I pray for His forgiveness,
Gives me strength to strengthen my broken heart,
Gives me light to lighten my path,
Gives me wisdom to rationalize my actions,
Showered happiness to all my loved ones,
To be a better muslimah..

I will be stronger in future..insyaallah..

My list to do and rules to follow..dated 14/8/2008..

where i have to let go the person that i love so much, coz he will never be mine and never will be together.

1-place a sticker or reminder in diary that he will never be the one..and i should get rid of him cause i am worth to get someone better

2-pray to Allah to show the best way

3- place reminder at place where i spend my time more

4-place reminder stating 'i'm better in any way and i'm worth for someone better than him' on things that remind him

5-i deserve someone better that will appreciates me for being there for him

6-the right person is sumwhere around me..just time will show me which one is that right person

7-i should have high self esteem

8-he choose that girl rather than me..it doesn't mean anything..it doesn't mean that girl is better than me

9-i should enjoy every moment of my life rather than to waste it by thinking of him

10-go out for fun.....enjoy my life.....focus more on my work

11-stop griefing about him..10 months is too long for giving him notice how much i love him..it's time to move on..

12-dont feel stupid....and regain myself.....

13-live life to the fullest and let the love comes naturally

14-when i look back later....i will regret how much i wasted my time and my tears for him and at the same time i feel how lucky i am for forgetting him..aahh..the sweetest part..

15-when..i already found someone that will truly love me for who i am...only then....i will realize how grateful and wonderful life is

16-do all this and follow the rules..

when it's over..it is OVER..it's time i get serious in educating my mind, close my heart and say bye bye honey..when it's over..you are too late.. +~_~+

Words of wisdom..to remind myself

I've been thinking lately..analyze myself..which road will i choose, which path will i follow, which door i will open for the next few years..and i wrote this..to remind myself..to inspire myself..to educate myself..i really hope that the road i chose, the path i followed and the door i opened will lead me to happiness and what i've been searching for...

If u think u are beaten,u are.

If u think u dare not,u don't.

If u like to win,but u think u can't,

It's almost certain u won't.

If u think u'll lose,u are lost.

For out in the world we find.

Success begins with a fellow's will,

it's all in the state of mind.

If u think u are outclassed,u are.

you've got to think high to rise,

u've got to be sure of urself before

u can ever win a prize.

Life battle don't always go

to the stronger or faster man.

But, sooner or later,the man who wins

is the man who thinks he can..

thank you kak As..

i dedicated this blog to my dearest kak Asnimar...for her has given me a cute teddy bear that i will cherish always..hehehe..thank you and i really appreciate it..

well..talking about her, she's a nice sis..with cute + always young face and her double triple cute son, Farid...omg..i don't know how to express how cute he is..honestly Farid is sooo damn cute plus the innocent look..makes me really like to kiss him and hug him..theeheehee..i always said to kak As 'i wonder how my baby will look like..seriously i don't have any clue'; yet still i can't stop wondering it. i wish my baby will be as cute as Farid..aaahh...*start dreaming* but as always my rationale side of me hit me back to reality with 'stop being unrealistic and thinking something unthinkable because you don't even have a man to get marry with in the 1st place'. ouch..it's hurt indeed. well, who says life is easy and always fair?

yet..that only for temporary..when i see Farid or any cute babies, i will start wondering again..hahaha...i just can't be helped anymore...theeheehee...

And again..thank you to a person who named Asnimar..(^_^)v


Teddy from Kak As (named teddy) and the cute packaging.. ;D

The star of this post..Farid..isn't he cute...hehehe...

Happy birthday to me..

~~~Happy birthday to me ~~~
~~~Happy birthday to me ~~~
~~~Happy birthday to myself ~~~
~~~Happy birthday to me ~~~

hahaha..i'm singing birthday song to myself. i really missed my friends during university. they always do birthday surprise to me. i will never forget the moment. never. it's so precious and meaningful. i'm sitting here alone, thinking whether i would have the chance to have it again in the future..hahaha..but honestly, i appreciated every birthday wishes that i received today. thank you all (^_^).

i come from a family that always think i'm independent. nothing much to worried about, they don't really care less about this small things (which actually to me quite a big thing..hehehe..). my parents wouldn't know how old i am if i don't tell them...hahaha..my mum always guess i'm younger than the actual age, which i think quite good. everyone want to be younger than their age..hehehe..so i think i'm used of all this. i still love them though. not everyone perfect, including me..hehehe..

alright..now i'm a year older. what i want to do..hermm...i thought deeply..they're so much things i want to do. i think i'm a bit strayed of my actual plan due to unexpected events and other things. thus, my priority began to change. in the past, my 1st priority would be my career and marriage never be included in the plan..serious..i never thought of getting married or even want to have a boyfriend.

yet..day by day, i realize..deep inside of me..without i'm knowing before, my 1st priority is my family. i want to have a good family, a good husband, cute babies and i will try my best to be a good wife, a good lover, a good mother....hahaha..funny isn't it. how can fate playing with us. yet, as usual, the thing that we want the most is not easy to get or achieve. on the other hand, usually something that is easy to get, will floating away easily.it's human nature, they won't appreciate something that easily achieved because they don't remember the hard work. thus, i just let time and fate be the judge.

but that doesn't mean my career will be left out. i still be a career woman, it's just that it is my 2nd priority. i also want to pursue my study. perhaps, maybe i can be a lecturer or trainer. i began to love teaching. i'm by nature love to help people. so i think i want to help people as much as i could in my life, especially the people around me, the people that i love the most. that's how i want my life to be in the next few years until the soul has taken away from me. hence, i should try my best ne...hehehe..\(^_^)/

Somebody's me

A song to someone that i will never forget. good lyrics and sexy voice from enrique..truly, i never can't forget you. the other part of me singing with this song...

You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I really fell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you with somebody else

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me

How, How could we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our paths will soon cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory
You, will you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes someday you will see
That Somebody's Me

to forget someone we love isn't as easy as ABC...

Now i know how hard it is to forget someone we truly love. It's not easy indeed. It requires a lot of courage and determination, while your heart always resisting with emotions. I always believe once; "Let your heart be your guidance" or "Follow your heart and you will never lost", thus i always sincere with myself and follow my heart. But now, in this situation, i don't think it is relevant. When it comes to love and heartbreak, reality has to come first. No matter how hard it is..no matter how painful it is..no matter how many tears you cried..the fact of 'we cannot force someone to love us back' cannot be denied. Why? Because love never prejudice. Because love is pure.

Indeed loving someone isn't a crime, but making a fool of yourself as if worlds is ending..never be forgiven. There are a lot of things to be done..to achieve..lots of memories may created...because we only live once in this life and time never can be revert back.

I always say to myself to be stronger each day..educate my mind with positive thinking..exploring another angle..another horizon of my mind. Someone said to me twice that 'life is a journey..life not full of roses...'.. well, i agree with him though. it is true that life is a journey. the matters here is not the definition of life itself, but how we want our life would be. thus, making decision is important. Whereas, life is indeed not full of roses, even roses have torns! What i'm trying to say is, don't ever think one sided. it's not fair. Yet it doesn't mean, what he's saying isn't true. It's just, the statements won't stop as easy like that and will be never ending argument.

What i believe is in this world, everything and everyone isn't perfect. But it's never a crime to be at least perfect or to be better. Accepting this, means you will be a better person.

Tadaaa.....here are my new hair style

It's been years i haven't do any hair makeover. thus, i think the last saturday, i have to do it. nothing can stop me. this makeover really meaningful and important to me..to start a new beginning and a state of mind. i always think that i'm just plain girl, but when i see this picture..hey..i'm not bad at all..;D

after all happens to me lately, i think i deserve something. so i went to a saloon and ask the stylist to do whatever he can do to make my hair lively and beautiful...hahaha...well..also with the cost..huhuhu..(^_~)

Tadaaa.....here are my new hair style...still long and wavy..hehehe...

Thanks uollz for staying beside me all afternoon and to dearest Erma for giving me the opportunity to do it..hehehe..

Love you all...*muahh*

a letter to someone...

a letter to someone...(to remind myself)

I like you,
Ever since our first met,
At first it’s just because your eyes,
It is so beautiful and mesmerize,
Yet day by day,
Without my knowing,
I starting to love you more & more,
Missing you more & more,
Care about you more & more,

I realize that I love you,
When jealousy strikes me like lightning,
Never before like this,
I realize I love you,
When I can’t stop thinking about you,
Like ever flowing wind..endless,
I realize I love you,
When I can’t stop talk about you,
To me you are perfect,
You are inspirational,
It’s all happens without I’m knowing,

Don’t ask me what,
Because I love you without any reason,
Don’t ask me how,
Because it just happens,
Don’t ask me why,
Because I love you as who you are,
Accepting everything you have,
Never thinking of receive anything from you,
Because I know who am I to you,

I keep it silence,
For 9 months 2 days 23 hours 32 seconds,
Because I know your heart isn’t mine,
I keep it silence,
Because I am afraid to lose you,
Even as a friend,
I keep it silence,
Because I respect our friendship,
I keep it silence,
Because I know who am I to you,
I keep it silence,
Because I never have the courage to see the future,

Both of us ain’t wrong,
Because love is pure,
Both of us ain’t wrong,
Because loving a person isn’t a crime,
You ain’t wrong,
Because your heart is for someone’s else,
You ain’t wrong,
Because you have to be true to yourself,
I ain’t wrong,
Because loving you isn’t a crime,
I ain’t wrong,
Because I have to be true to myself,
Both of us ain’t wrong,
Because love doesn’t prejudice,

I know there will be time I have to make a choice,
Yet lets time and fate be the judge,
Worry not,
I’ll be better in time,
I will always smile,
Not because of you,
But because I deserve to,

I will always by your side,
Not as a foe,
But as a friend,
I will always by your side,
Not because I expect anything,
But because you are a good friend,

I will always by your side,
Not because of any hidden agenda,
But because I appreciate our friendship,
Because of happy memories we make,
Even we just know for a short time,

I hope this won’t exclude me from you,
I hope this won’t make you run away from me,
I hope this won’t end everything,
Because we are adult,
I hope we’re still friends,
And I am happy for you,
In whatever you do,
And I am getting stronger,
In whatever I do,
Thank you,
For giving me this feeling,
Thank you,
For giving me happy memories which I will never forget,
Thank you,
For everything,